welcomed him home.

so last night i welcomed him home.

he left his shoes at the door and his pride on the stoop before coming in.
i hung my pride up beside the summer jacket i knew i wouldn't be wearing for a while.
i longed for the foolishness to be done.

all communication up to now lived in our palms as we checked old text messages and the new alerts.

he was beautiful.
and we had yet to make eye contact or so much as a sneeze.

he doubled up on his basketball shorts and wore a tank top under the white tshirt i had given him five months ago when i wore hanae mori cologne and showered with irish springs with aloe.
i could still smell the younger me.

he was beautiful.

his thumbs moved fast across the qwerty keyboard and my eyes moved faster across him being.

'so...i missed you.'
he looked up.
what the fuck was i saying?
i don't miss people.

i'd sooner bite through that skin that lives between the pointer finger and the thumb than confess a longing for anyone.
but shit, this was the type of longing that went further south than the heart.
this was the type that managed to build a fort in one's groins.
shit!

and he smiled.

and as much as i hate the fact that the sun disappears at 5:00pm it didn't seem to bother me anymore.
i now found more time to enjoy laying in a bed with the remote on the floor and my fingertips creating a maze between the strands of hair he promised to grow so i could grab.

and between the last few bites of baked sweet potatoes and the first few minutes of a massaging shower
we found ourselves omitting all fuck-ups we caused in madness.

and with paid programming happening in front of us and the remote too far
we lay there in satisfaction
but no words.

i missed him.

so last night i welcomed him home.